Affection with Abomination

http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1357069DKZqmaty
Those are real lives under the so-called harmonious society in Beijing before the coming Olympics, and now the fig leaf has been torn off by British journalists from Channel 4.

I could feel my tear drop in my heart which would never be wiped away when a peasant knelt down to the reporter. Losing all his hope, it was the only thing occured to him, the only effort the feeble could ever make when facing the regime throughout thousands of years in China though there is no more absolute monarchy in this country. It was the most pathetic act I had ever seen and what made me even mournful was that petitioners around the peasants helped him up saying "we could not disgrace ourselves and our country to westerners". Under the worst situation of their lives, they still cared about the country's face and were able to forbear all of their sorrows. If only the government could realize that and show them the least compassion!

I was really in a complicated mood after watching this video. The reporter, though objective and brave, has done an extremely awful thing to the petitioners by collecting their written complaints. To him they were no more than great materials for reporting but to the feeble he was acting like a saviour who offered them dreams which would never come true. What's more, I felt totally lost between the two emotions - affection and abomination. After all, I am a Chinese, I love my country. BUT I don't know how to love it, nor do I know what can I do to improve it. Most Chinese hold an optimistic view on the country's future declaring that things are changing. Less facts, less pains.